Jennifer Courtney Jennifer Courtney

Sweet child of mine

2022-11-14 10:14:53

Is there something wrong with me? I hum and click and twitch. My body always feels like it's responding to an itch. They want me in a circle, they want me on a chair, but my mind somehow feels calmer with my feet up in the air. I'm told I need to focus and just do what I am told, but if the subject doesn't interest me, my attention will not hold. I don't like to be in trouble, I'm not trying to be bad. Being in my body sometimes makes me really sad. I don't feel like I am normal, I often don't feel seen, and of course, it hurts my feelings when the other kids are mean. Is there something wrong with me? Please tell me clear and true. Being me is so darn hard, I would rather be like you. Oh, sweet child there's nothing wrong with you, you are so wonderfully made. You are everyt...Continue

Out with the old

2020-12-31 10:45:38

Good ole New Year’s resolutions. Do you still practice this or are you over it already. Me? Ya, I’m SO over it, and have been for a long time! I’m a Mom of 4 and I would never tell my kids to tie their whole year’s worth of hope, success, happiness, and health, to one drunken night’s proclamation. We’ve all heard the statistics around resolutions, and it’s bleak at best, so let’s not do what’s bleak. What if this year we did what was smart, and achievable, and something that will help build our health, wellness, success, and confidence? If you know me at all you know I’m a huge fan of realism, and for some that may feel like negativity sometimes, but I assure you it is not. I don’t believe for one second that toxic positivity is healthy or maintainable, but bei...Continue

My Ex's Wedding

2018-05-14 19:53:01

Today my ex-husband is getting married. Today is a big day for him, his bride and all our children. Today is a happy day and a day for celebration. He is happy and that makes me happy. That makes our children happy and that makes my current husband happy (I remarried 6 years ago). It’s a circle, and we are all connected. We are all a family and when a family member is happy we celebrate, and when they are sad we lean in to see how we can help. That’s what family does. We have worked hard for this relationship and it came with many - I mean OMG MANY - trials and errors, but we stayed focused on what was important and what wasn’t, and that has got us to where we are today. I share this today to offer hope to divorced homes; to show that life doesn’t have to be yelling...Continue

Premeditated Resentments

2017-12-28 21:25:28

Gratitude; tis the season for it. Some have it, some want it, others seek it, and some even fake it, but what is it really? I like to believe I have it, but if I’m being truly honest, I have to admit I often fall short and have on occasion even faked it. I believe one of my biggest setbacks to feeling truly grateful a lot of the time is expectations. I had it once said to me that expectations are nothing more than premeditated resentments, and in my experience I am inclined to agree. So often others can’t meet our expectations for many reasons, and when this happens we can feel let down, and if it happens often enough we tend to build up resentments, all based off OUR expectations. To feel truly grateful means to release your ideas for that situation and find joy and contentment in wha...Continue

It's ok to be confident

2017-10-01 17:48:32

"It's okay to be confident." This was a grow point I received after a speech I recently gave, and these words have been stuck in my head ever since. As a girl/woman, we are often taught in many different ways that being "confident" is seen as a negative. She's bossy, aggressive, abrasive, cocky, snob, Bit@#, who does she think she is, she must be doing "favors" for the boss!!!! I have heard my fair share of these in my days, and I have spent many years feeling insecure, unsure, and almost apologetic about my ambitions or areas that I excel at. I have found that people (sadly, often other woman) like to see others fail. They like to point out others’ flaws as if that erases theirs somehow. They will gossip about other woman's marriages, kids, weight, messy house, all in order to feel bet...Continue